I feel like t he only thing keeping me from killing myself is there are things in life I need to see first. I need to see what life is like without family. I need to marry the girl I lost recently.  Which I doubt I'll ever be able to do Haha. Some people say they can't live without family.... I Cant live with them. I know I seem heartless. But I haven't had a full day of happiness. If I have so much as seen someone I live with. I want to get just a year and a half to go till first day of adult Hood. Which will be wisely spent getting a tattoo lol