Well idk

well i decided to create a new blog.....yes the name of it means!!! that this is a critisize free zone, you can do what ya want and not think about it. i made this also just so i can write and complain about all my crap because no one will ever read any of this stuff. and because when i write stuff no matter if no one hears it or not it makes me feel better......ok so here we go..so lately ive been feeling out of place, ya see im a punk atheletic street smart black wolf. while all my freinds (besides like two) are smart smart and lazy. and i love all my friends and i dont like being put down in anyway but then i dont like to tell anyone off when they do it. i feel like this isnt my type of people. but it is i love hanging with them i love them all but i feel like the odd one out no matter what i do. and that what ever i do it gets critisized and isnt good enough. so i dont know what to really do anymore, so im just gonna keep going like always. -shrugs- oh well... i want to be in a band so bad, but i tried and well i sucked and i didnt think they liked it very much so hopefully i can start one with my awesome punk bro mr.shafer...as soon as we get drums. lets see what else. i think i wanna be a douche (not technically of course) because well idk.....naahh nevermind... anywho i cant wait to go waltzing in january but then again megan eberly who i love gets my anxiety levels sky rocketing when we are in public. and she was mean to me last night. when will people realized I DONT CAARRREEEEE if im doing something a little wrong. IM haveing fun and thats what to me is important so get off my ass and go correct someone elses life.. oh and by the way you have a rafter in your eye there.....i hate that i go from being feared but still loved by worldly people then in the truth im treated like dirt, i kinda miss the world sorry but im not gonna lie, i love the truth i love jehovah and i love following his laws and i always will but ya know some of his sheep are really mean and are douche bags and i want to punch all of them in the face and give them a peice of my mind but i dont. YYYYY?????? cause im a better man than that . i think i may turn this blog into a hate blog